Really I want to cry

 I really wanted to cry. I wanted to shout out all my dismay, no friend whom I have .. I'm just alone with my lack of self .. I wanted to run as far as possible and ask is there a noble-hearted friend like an angel? I guess not because a friend just to have fun not to share joy and sorrow,,, I need peace of myself .very sad when the desire is not in line with expectations,,, I mused alone hoping someone come entertain me. But it is not possible, because they do not want to accept any shortcomings of myself. they just use me just never sincere, they laughed with cynical and I'm just showing my smile at them even though inside I was crying, rain is wet my body so that no one who knows I was injured because of them. I was so tormented by their stares. day after day my face all this with patience, when I'm frail helpless nobody understands this feeling. they always berate me they always make me cry in the hearts